God I Need U

I thank you for your love &mercy. I Know there r times that Keep asking u the samething. over &over. because im trully sacared of dying from. cancer . im grateful for two wonderful children &grandson's.but I woyld really like chance to have someone special in my life that truly loves me.im tired of being stupid & being like Im worthy of someone special. ithought that had true friend , that could trust but again i was wrong. i cry to u God , but i don't know if sick hearing me cry. Im sorry God , but I need U.please help Me.